The other day I wondered about statements being made by various people through my life. Statements delivered with a certain pomposity and finality. ‘Wear a sari, it’s traditional, it’s good and what Indians look best in and …what is done’, ‘This is the only way to cook the Chitraput Saraswat or Kashmiri food ’, ‘This is how we celebrate Diwali and we must decorate the thali exactly like this’, this is how this was done always.’ In short, ‘Do all this and you are a good girl’!
Now in my fifties, I wonder who in the world it was who designed the sari, or created Saraswat cuisine, or decided that Diwali celebrations would be with sweets, fireworks and cards? The inventor would probably be over the moon that his one idea has stood the test of time over centuries! The seal on invention for Saraswat or Kashmiri cuisine has been closed for future inventive Kashmiri or Saraswat chefs! No doubt the sari was creativity at its best… scintillating, vibrant and beautiful. And kudos to the designer! Just maybe it was not one inventor and all this evolved and became eventually the sari, the cuisine, the festival. But most certainly the evolution has languished to a halt! It’s not that I don’t love the feel of a soft sari drape around me or the fragrance of agarbatti and the peace of sitting at my pooja corner. It is the label of virtue attached to a person who abides by convention without looking beneath it, that irks me.
Most of us don’t know why we exactly stick to certain conventions, how they came about or what it means. We follow them with a certain smugness as if it makes us virtuous by just doing them. Are we confusing tradition with goodness and virtue? Do we care about what is really important like kindness or gentleness or generosity or honesty or sincerity or a passion for life? The zeal to toe the line, play safe, find approval and fit in with the ‘pack’ creates a certain mindlessness and powerlessness, an inability to see through to the person inside carefully cloaked in tradition.
Some people who I had the good fortune to have in my life, who stepped out of the box, like Roopa, who wore trousers to weddings much to the exasperation of the conventional community. She was the kind of person who would give the last shirt she owned to a person in need and has helped scores of desperately unhappy people with her counseling skills, bringing them ‘back to life’, without charging a rupee. If she was more comfortable wearing trousers to a sari, so be it! Then there was my young maid Helen who smiled and laughed through all her problems (which were gargantuan, believe me). She loved my kids and us like we were family and brought so much life and laughter into the home. She was Catholic but like a happy little beaver she threw herself into the decorations for our Gokulashtami Pooja, painting the diyas, ardently making a beautiful cradle with her own hands and a lovely little dress for the baby Krishna.
She threw herself into everything and her enthusiasm was unhampered by our glowering Brahmin cook Rukma, who showed her vehement disapproval at a Catholic touching the pooja. I loved Helen, her laughter, her loving nature, her zest for life and her ability to respect and embrace all religions.
I wish I could live on Mark Twain’s recommendation “Sing like no one’s listening, love like you’ve never been hurt, dance like nobody’s watching, and live like its heaven on earth.” But before I begin, I must go and cook the Dum Aloos exactly the way it was done 100 years ago!
Suman